来自《耶鲁大学开放课程：1871年后的法国 第16集 第16集》

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  All the good friends at the beginning whom I'd chosen,
  一开始我选择的那些好友
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  who had lightened my hours and to whom I wanted to give back the strength they had given me,
  他们照亮了我的生活 我也想给他们那种力量
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  had fallen, one after the one,
  但他们一个接一个地陨落了
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  all of them, until I was alone in a crowd of indifferent men.
  只剩孤单的我在冷漠的人群里
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  And among those whose support I wished for,
  我渴望从朋友那里得到支持
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  to make this cult of the dead more fervent, was Benoit,
  这些朋友中 让这场死亡的狂热更疯狂的是班瓦
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  dearest to my heart and most valued friend.
  他是我最亲爱也是最珍贵的朋友
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  I said to myself, 'he, at least, will be saved.'
  我对自己说 至少他会被救活的
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  And I believed it.
  我也是这样相信的
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  Then one morning in the white hospital room the male orderly handed me a card
  一天早上 男勤杂工在医院的白房间里
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  and on this card I read 'Benoit is dead.'
  交给我一张卡片 上面写着班瓦死了
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  I felt a crushing sorrow.
  悲伤压倒了我