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that in my effort to distract him from his rampaging pique
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by arguing for the primacy of his pleasure,
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I had given a boost to his feeling for me,
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and I exposed mine for him.
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I was gushing and I knew it.
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I surprised myself with my eagerness to please, felt myself
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saying too much, explaining too much,
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over-involved and overexcited in the way you are
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when you're a kid and you think you've found
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a soul mate in the new boy down the street and
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you feel yourself drawn by the force of the courtship
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and so act as you don't normally do