Does it?

是不是?
What are you doing to me?

你想要我怎么样?
All of your life,

在你的一生中
you forced back the truth by lashing out at everyone around you.

你伤害身边的每一个人来逃避现实
Anesthetizing yourself with ambrosia and empty affairs.

用烈酒和虚无的爱恋来麻痹自己
But you've lost the taste for those petty things.

但你已经失去了对那些人生细节的感知
I'm the same person.

我还是同样的一个人
No. There's a void, an emptiness that can only be filled

不那一种空虚与惆怅
by taking the next step on your journey.

只能通过踏出你人生旅途的下一步而得到填补
What happened to me the two months I was missing?

失踪的两个月里我到底怎么了?
I don't know.

我不知道
The mandala, the paintings, my mother.

曼荼罗那些画我母亲