what difference would it make.

因为祈不祈祷又有什么影响呢
But for the first time in my life,

但这是我有生以来第一次
I felt like I couldn't pray.

打心底里觉得没法祈祷
And what would I say? "Hey, God, it's me again.

我能说些什么呢上帝又是我在祈祷
I know I just turned my back on you but do me a favor..."

我知道自己刚刚弃你而去但请你帮我个忙
Well, I though that God wasn't suppose to be vindictive.

我觉得上帝是不会记仇的
And I thought I was suppose to be a priest.

我还以为自己会成为神父呢
But now, I lost my connection to Him.

可是现在我失去了和他的联系
Anyway...

不管怎样
I'm really sorry. I don't think I should go to this wedding.

我真的很抱歉我觉得自己不该参加这场婚礼
It's supposed to be a day of celebration.

今天本该是个大喜的日子
I'm afraid I'll just bring everybody down.

我怕自己的消极情绪影响到大家