We have to do this.

做不完不行
There were at least five times,

至少有五次
a good five time where I totally broke down.

整整五次我完全崩溃了
And I just didn't want to do it anymore.

我真的想撒手不做了
I couldn't escape in any way.

但不管怎样我又躲不掉
So I would just go into the bathtub, and we have a bathtub shower,

所以我就躺进浴缸里泡个澡
And I'd just turn on the hot water.

就是放一缸热水
And I'd lay down on my back, and wait until the water went cold.

然后就这么躺着直到水变凉
That was all I had.

我只能这样
That was all I had to try to relax myself,

我只能这样放松自己了
and not worry about anything.

暂时忘掉这些事
I was actually really worried that either Tommy or I would die

我真有点担心我或者汤米会不会