with the suffering sailor.

放在一起
This is when it first occurs to her

这是她第一次经历这样的事
that the whole world is being organized around her:

全世界都在围着她转
Nothing of the night's could touch her.

黑夜里任何东西都无法触碰她
Nothing did.

任何东西都不行
The repetition of symbols was to be enough, without trauma,

符号的重复是为了确保足够不存在伤害性
as well, perhaps, to attenuate it,

而且或许为了减少它
or even jar it altogether loose from her memory.

或者甚至全部从记忆里抹去
She was meant to remember.

她曾打算铭记
She faced that possibility as she might the toy street from a high

当站在高高的阳台上俯瞰小城时她看到了可能性
balcony, roller-coaster ride, feeding time among the beasts in a zoo,

坐过山车在动物园的野兽间打发时间
any death wish that can be consummated by some minimum gesture.

任何寻死的念头都从一些细微的动作中表现得淋漓尽致