were only some kind of compensation to make up for her

只是对她的一种补偿
having lost the direct epileptic Word,

补偿她曾经疯疯癫癫的话丧失
the cry that might abolish the night.

以及那些能够打破深夜宁静的哭泣
This is a meditation on both the joy and the loss of literary substitution

这是一种冥想关于文学替代物的悲与喜的冥想
for the real or for the truth,

它追求现实或真理
the substitution of abstract pattern for something like comprehensible meaning.

这是一种抽象构架追求像可理解的含义这样的东西
So here, she's kind of enthralled with the idea that these gemlike clues

她对这些玉石般珍贵的情节是着迷的
that's a very Nabokovian moment

那是一个纳博科夫的时代
the gemlike clues that are gathering around her

玉石般珍贵的萦绕在她周围情节
would be a compensation for the loss of that real access to revelation.

是对通向真相的真实道路的缺失的一种补偿
And this has this religious sense to it.

这个对它来说具有宗教观念
It's not just the religious instant of looking down at San Narciso;

它不只是宗教时刻小看圣·纳西索