about his own father and the death of his mother.

和母亲离世的负疚感
For someone who is ascetic and withdrawn and preferred to be alone,

对于一个禁欲且孤僻离群的人来说
he became increasingly that way, unable to act.

不善掩饰的特点在他身上更是愈演愈烈
In 1794 in the month of Thermidor,

1794年热月
he became increasingly obsessed with his own end, his own demise.

他越来越缱绻于自己死亡结局的话题
He says, "If providence is seen fit to snatch me

他说到"若上天注定要我死于
"from the hands of the assassins,

"暗杀者之手
"it was to ensure that i would profitably employ

"我必要好好利用
"the moments that still remain to me."

"这仅剩的时间"
Yet he could only,

他也只能
as people howled at him from every conceivable angle in the convention,

当人们在国民公会上冲他汹涌狂哮时
murmur almost inarticulately.

他也只能含混地低声嗔怨