But the moment you walk out that door,

但你一走出那扇门

I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping.

我吃不下也睡不着

that your psyche concocted this elaborate fantasy

你的灵魂捏造出一个细节完美的幻想

No.

不

And then I realized that I was really just running away.

然后我意识到自己只是在逃避

That probably doesn't make any sense to you.

可能你觉得这很胡扯

I'm afraid my injury

恐怕是我的伤

that has manifested itself

并逐渐显演变成

All you got is the service, and it's slowly slipping away.

军役就是你的全部 可它也正从你手中溜走

and you're trying to find a way to wash yourself out.

你想方设法让自己精疲力竭

I have some kind of moral conscience

而晚上睡不着觉

I end up at -1, so think of this as guilt: some notion of morality.

我只得-1 把它看成负罪感吧