It's the only constant in my life,

这是我生活中唯一固定的习惯

that lurks in every corner of my thoughts.

那无尽黑暗的方式

that illuminated the nature of Orson's affliction

激发了欧森虐杀的本性

So I went back to the source.

于是我回来找凶手本人

This typically stems from an extreme hatred towards a woman

他对女性的极度憎恨

How do you know the dad wasn't the abusive one

你怎么知道施虐者不是父亲

His heart gave out. It's nobody's fault.

他的心脏放弃了 这不是任何人的错

to prove himself to his father, Christian.

他要向他的父亲Christian证明自己

See you next week.

下周再见

but he yearned, as they always do, to become a soloist.

但是他跟多数人一样 希望成为独奏者

I found that, while I might have found the prose more or less

我也许发现那些散文或多或少地不间断地在我脑海里浮现

reaction, and I was more or less in "his" head.

我多少有些进入"他的"脑海里